Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Why do we smile even when we feel sad
Why do we hide what’s inside? 
Why are we afraid of another’s reactions when we ask for the truth? 
Why do we fear the truth
 
And everyday we die a little, and then little by little our fears poison us until we are nothing but a shell of who we were before – happy and free. 
Oh how you wish you could regain yourself again but all you feel is your bare feet walking in a bed of broken glass feeling the pain all over your body and your soul
 
Why are you so hurt
Didn’t you know from the beginning that this might happen?  Didn’t you foresee
I know you did because you told me so. 
You said that it’s possible that one may tire, that people change, and that love spirals down.  So sad, now you wish you had let your heart of steel remain cold.  Poor you, so lost, so afraid, poisoned by your own fairy tale
 
Your beloved, how radiant he is in the morning, so passionate that it’s so confusing, so cold at night like the darkness that surrounds you. 
Are you standing still? 
Ah, to be madly in love! 
How do you feel to finally have your feet grounded now?
I told you so. 
 
I chuckle to myself when I see you almost to tears and then you stop it from flowing as if that will stop the pain
Oh, so sorry are you? 
Tell me, do you feel the love? 
Is everything around you the dream you wished so much for? 
How blinded you are little one, so small.
Why don't you find yourself again? 
It is time you stop fighting what you see in the mirror and find the angel inside. 
Stop this hideous monster from ruining your life!
You have awakened from the ashes before.
Do not burn yourself again. 
I will tell you a secret and you can be sure of it.

Goddess Morwen at 9:28 AM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004
A friend once commented that true love is hard to find. That the special one is one of a kind. I said that I agree. I agree that it is indeed hard to find and if you do find one it is hell to pay to keep it. I mentioned that finding one is not the end all and be all of true love. Nurturing it to grow and flourish is the greater challenge. Well I have an entire lifetime to experiment.

Goddess Morwen at 12:44 PM

Tuesday, July 06, 2004
I cannot find the answer. Try as I might my mind seems to dance with the wrong tune. I am shattering. Visions of different faces and time past, glimpses of what is to come, voices that whisper mad words to me, are all swirling around me. Faster and faster. Closer and closer.

My tears are now shed. My soul has gone.

I wish to sleep endlessly. No pain.

Saint Agnes why do you hold my heart still? Please let me go? What else is there? Did I leave a stone unturned or a farewell I failed to give?

TRuST, LoVE, fAITH, where have they gone?

--Lost Souls

Goddess Morwen at 11:39 AM