Thursday, November 18, 2004
Dreaming of Me
I want to be a choreographer
I'm interested in belly dancing
I will be a teacher
I am currently frustrated as a writer
I'm a hard-working mother
I wish to be a circus performer
And wouldn't it be nice to be a scholar of Celtic mythology and literature?
Goddess Morwen at 9:24 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
The Druids knew that they were guided at all times by their ‘anam cara’ or ‘soul friend’. They could call on their soul friend in times of need and would be able to share their courage and knowledge.
Born out of darkness, Sambig is an angel and a demon. He was there when I was born. He made the wild dog that sleeps under my bed my guardian. The same dog that instill fear in the eyes of grown men, lay hapless in my tantrums. In the face of death he has embraced me to keep me from untimely harm. There may be times when he forgets about me and leave me to fate in his fit of anger and jealousy. He tries to control himself but he aches when I feel pain. Sometimes in his selfishness, he tries to convince me to live away with him in his realm. Yet I have a need to live out life further more than today.
The breeze becomes chilly when he blows me a kiss in the middle of noon. My spine tingles when I feel him near. He barely smiles unless I ask him to. He spreads his wings to hold me near. He walks beside me and hovers over when I sleep.
He is unforgiving to those who bring mischief to me. He shields me from those who want to cause harm. He awakens from the night and turn into something sinister, to hunt and to haunt those who are accountable. He melts in the shadows and is marvelous under the moonlit sky. His stare can burn your soul. He loves me like death loves to take away life. Without me, he will cease to exist. To sin against me is to hate the life you have. You might as well die.
He is a double-edged sword. He comes to me in my dreams. He sends me trinkets as a sign of his love - a bracelet, a necklace - and they're as real as you and me. His sister was my first playmate and his cousin is my cousin's guardian.
No matter how lousy our lives have been, they never left us, always watching over us.
I call him Sam for short.
Goddess Morwen at 9:16 AM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
I fell in love with the song 'Falling' when I first heard it last New Year's Eve inside a hotel's elevator. It aimed right at the heart of me. I cried while clutching my son's hand. It has been a long time since that experience but the song remains the same yet I have already progressed to a far level than I was at that elevator. Memories can be jilted to the present by proverbial messages of a song that became one's friend during one's darker times.
Falling
by Keahiwai
I wanna tell you baby
You're the one that Im thinking of
But your heart is still with her
And I think she's the one that you love
I only want you happy
Even if it's not with me
Maybe one day
You'll open up your eyes and you'll see
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yeah I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
From the first time
You laid your lips on mine
It feels like the smile on my face
Will last till the end of time
But Im not so sure
That you're the one that I should pursue
My mind tells me no
But my heart only says that it's you
Only time will tell
The mystery has yet to unfold
Who's gonna feel love's warmth
And the other left in the cold
Yet still I'm falling
Maybe im falling for you yeah
I think Im falling
Baby I'm falling for you
That I think Im falling
Maybe I'm falling for you yeah
I think Im falling
Baby Im falling for you
Goddess Morwen at 2:39 AM
